Learning About Life

Nothing in this life that is worth having comes easy

2008-05-30T01:57:00.004+08:00

I was watching an episode from Scrubs and Dr Kelso said this line "Nothing in this life that is worth having comes easy" and I can relate to that. Maybe just being at this stage in life makes me ponder more about where I'm headed and the path that I want to take in life.

University life is finally coming to an end. No more lectures and tutorials, assignments and projects and exams and tests. But there also be no more chit-chatting and gossiping between classes, yumcha session, late night conversation over YM trying to figure out how to solve an assignment question, and no more hanging out with my bunch great and awesome friends that have been with me for the past four years. Everyone is heading back to their hometown and going on their separate ways to fulfill their needs and dreams in life.

But it don't have to end like this. With today's technology, we can still keep in contact with each other. Though it may not be same as last time, but at least we will be hanging on our precious friendships. So keep in touch ya...

Take care and always strive for your dreams and don't let the fear and uncertainty stop you from chasing that dream. I will always believe in each and every one of you and I'll stand by you always. Good luck and be happy always. Take care and always keep in touch.

Malaysian Dreamgirl: Review of MDG Season 1

2008-05-03T12:42:00.009+08:00

So Malaysian Dreamgirl has finally come to an end. There's been up and down, drama and tears, back-stabbing and bitching. That's what makes reality series interesting and worth watching. I bet by now, everyone has already heard about the results and our first Malaysian Dreamgirl is Cindy. I'm not going to dedicate this article to her because there's already too many blog entried covering that, be it good or bad.

Anyway, since this is going to be my last entry about MDG Season 1, I think it would be best to write a simple review of what I think about this show and maybe throw in some suggestions at the end.

Basically, this is what I think about the show:

It's been a great first try on making an online reality show. Kudos to Capxion Media on making this possible but there's still room for improvement.

The editting and production has been choppy and there's certain part of the show that drags a bit too longer and this can be annoying and throw ppl off.

Recently I realised that not all episode parts are uploaded at the same time and some parts are missing as well. Since I do not know the total number of parts for that particular episode since it's not fixed, there's occasion where I missed out on some of the episodes.

The challenges are way too simple and does not really seem like challenges at all. They are just like simple exercises and the girl with the nicest homework gets the prize. Hohum....

The judges and Sazzy are not really that involved in the show. There should be more interaction and more input from the judges instead of just Sazzy giving comments on elimination day.

Hmmmm.....that's about all I think. And now for some suggestions:

Include subtitles throughout the show, not only when the girls speak in chinese. As this is an online show, ppl from around the world and watch this and some may not understand Malay and even the English that is used in the show.

Make sure that each part of the episodes is only showing a particular event/occasion. There's been improvement in terms of this and I'm really happy but as I said, there's still room for improvement.

Increase the difficulty of the challenges. Or maybe even invite individuals from the fashion industry to give the challenges and judged them.

As for the third point given above, maybe include an indicator of the total number of parts for that particular episode (eg. (1/7) letting us know that there's a total of 7 parts)

The episodes should include feedback and opinions from the judges about the pictures that have been taken instead of just from Sazzy. Maybe show the photoshoot and the judges' comments on Thursday and the elimination on Saturday so that the audience get to know how the professionals in the industry think about those pictures. Better yet if the Thursday episode is brought forward to Tuesday so they will have more time to view the episodes and to cast their votes.

Based on the dissatisfaction regarding the final winner, I suggest that the judging method by changed. Instead of purely based on SMS votes, take into consideration the judges' point of view as well. Maybe 70% SMS and the other 30% from the judges. Or the judges choose the bottom 3 and the audience vote on who they want to give a second chance to. This way, it will be fairer and will certainly bring up the standard of the girls. Essentially this show is about choosing a potential model, not the next prom queen. So it shouldn't be based on popularity votes alone.

I think another judge should be chosen to replace Kenny Sia. Someone from the fashion and modelling industry or maybe a guest judge for every episode/week. This way we will get better feedback and opinions. Kenny is just there to boost the popularity of the show since he's a celebrity blogger. No offense but he's not professional and as we have seen during the auditions, he's just a normal hot-blooded male and like Elaine Daly said, he's choosing his own dreamgirl instead of those with modelling potential (I hope his fans don't flame me for this).

I'm done blabbling. I think that's about all. And I agree with what Valerie said, despite what the rest have said about this show and their intention about boycotting this show, I think in end they will still tuned in to find out how the second season differs from the first.

So I hope I'll see improvements in terms of the production and the standard of the girls as well in the second season.

P.S. Von Jolly's dresses are GORGEOUS!! Anyone know if they are expensive?

Malaysian Dreamgirl - Top 3

2008-04-24T13:46:00.007+08:00

Tuned in to Episode 15 of Malaysian Dreamgirl and I was real shock of the outcome in the end. This is the last elimination episode before the grand finale and three girls were sent home in this episode. It didn't turned out the way I expected.

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And the Top 3 in Malaysian Dreamgirl are:

Adeline

Cindy

Hanis

From the 3 girls left in the show, I can't say they're undeserving but IMHO there're better girls among the final 6 girls.

Here's my take on who should have stayed on...

My first choice would be Jay. She's tall and her facial features are very defined and her body are to die for @_@ She's experienced and her pictures always turned out okay, if not superb. But her last photoshoot for Von Jolly was so-so, not her best...Nevertheless, her performance has been quite consistent throughout the competition and I really enjoy the fact that she has a mind of her own and a very matured and collected personality. And she carries herself very well and very well spoken too. That's why she's my top choice for Malaysian Dreamgirl, she got the whole package going for her.

The second choice would be Datin. Yup...she made it into the Top 3 and I'm glad she did. She have never been in the bottom 3 and it just goes to show that she have a very good group of supporters behind her. To me, she's pretty normal to tell you the truth. You could walk pass her and never know that she is Hanis. She's like the girl-next-door and just like people you see everyday in your life. You're unlikely to go "OH WOW" and be completely be mesmerized and having to pick up your jaw from the floor when you see her but maybe it's her bubbly personality that makes me root for her. But she earned good review from Andrew from Andrewsmodel (you'll know what I'm talking about if you've watched Ep15) so I hope she wins this.

My third choice would be Eyna. Yes yes...I know she's not in the Top 6 but I'd never thought her elimination was justifiable. Despite her great pictures and the high opinions everybody have of her, she'd been in the bottom 3 for a number of episodes before her untimely elimination. She takes great pictures and her facial features are good. To me, she got model material. I don't admit to be an expert in fashion and modelling and maybe my opinions have been swayed by opinions from other individuals but what the heck, she takes great pictures.

So here's MY top 3 Dreamgirls:

Jay

Hanis

Eyna

But what's done, done. So we'll see how things go in the finale.

I'm rooting for Hanis...What about you?

Way to go Nuffnang!!

2008-04-23T23:18:00.002+08:00

The team in Nuffnang have launched a new fun feature for fellow Nuffnangers. It's the new Poll feature where you get to create your own poll and ask your readers some awesome/stupid/silly questions.

And according to the entry about this new feature in the Nuffnang blog, it's a smart poll where it can remember the correspondants answers they have answered from other blogs. So that means you don't have to answer the same stupid question over and over and over and over again.....

This is cool...I'd made a poll to experiment, so answer my poll ok?? ^_^

Farnie Engrish

2008-04-19T12:53:00.011+08:00

i received this email from my friend today and can't help laughing....

its blardy farnie and according to the title of the forwarded email, those pictures are taken in China as they are gearing up their preparation for the Beijing Olympics. LOL....

And if you're dead, please get to a hospital...

A difficult meal...

Other children are OK...

I think it was that 'screw you' comment...

Start with the big toe...

Are you smiling?

Well, it is free...

That would explain the beer cubs outside...

Flavor with heart...

Falling should be planned...

I told gramps to use protection...

Plenty of meat for everybody...

Got too many kids?

Ouch!

We really never know what kind...

I wouldn't dare...

One lump or two?

Thank you for open!

Translation: 'no parking on bicyclists at any time'

How do you do?

No crack?

The pool man is gonna freak

Yeah, cheated out of breathing...

Stylist Ben Dover at your service...

Operators standing by....

Damn, these fireworks reek....

Press it because you want to....

I'll keep a look out....

New in this section: 'Bowling with Bilbo'

I give my life and my company, but they just keep demanding more...

Based on the website url on the images, i decided to get a look and the website really do exist. and there's more funny pictures there.

The steaks here are like rubber... (Restaurant found in Kyoto, Japan)
Reminds me of the comment I left on kyspeaks (how do i trackback?)

So if you find these funny, go there and have some more laughs!

connect2earth

2008-04-18T20:57:00.006+08:00

Mother Nature and the environment have been suffering following the era of globalisation and industrialisation. I'm not here to lecture you about all the things that you should avoid and the things that you can do to help the environment as I'm sure all of you know all about it but just too lazy to move your butt.

But what if there's a reward for taking part? From now until October (not too sure about this), there's a collaboration between WWF, International Union for Conservation of Nature (IUCN) and Nokia that allows individuals from all over the world to share their points of view, their thoughts and opinions about the environment. While you're at it, you even stand a chance of winning a Nokia phone!!

connect2earth is a global community set up by the collaborators to provide a space for people to share their thoughts about the environment and be a part of a community with a common goal, that is to conserve and save the environment.

You can post up pictures, videos, articles etc to the site and via voting and judging that is conducted every month, a lucky winner is selected. So get your thinking cap, cameras, microphones, video cams or just your yellow writing pad, start thinking and share your thoughts with the world.

Register at connect2earth and BE PART OF SOMETHING BIG!!!

Malaysian Dreamgirl - A taste of the real deal...

2008-04-13T14:21:00.008+08:00

the girls from the Malaysian Dreamgirl finally gets a taste of the real deal. they were given a chance to do the runway walk during the launching of the Malaysian International Fashion Week. it's a big event for fashion designers in Malaysia where they get to showcase their work and designs on the runway.

the girls were given a chance to model clothes for Karl Ng and this is definitely their first big break in the fashion modelling industry. they get the exposure they need and this is such a big scale event with professional models and celebrities in abundance.

Jay and Hanis are the luckiest in the lot because they were chosen to model for another 3 designers during the show. so they get to go out on the runway for a total of 4 times! all of them look great on the runway and they put on a great show. as for Ringo, the way she puts it, it seems like she got short-changed because she got chosen to be Karl Ng's muse...i still don't understand why -__-"

the girls' latest photoshoot is modelling creations from Carven Academy of Fashion at the Bar Savanh Too at Plaza Mont' Kiara. looking at their pictures from this photoshoot, i don't think any of them did very well, just looks ok to me. and during the show, Nadia seem a bit stressed out and affected by the fact that she was in the bottom 3 during the last elimination round.

Adeline

this angle is similar to last week, not too flattering

Cindy

this shoot is ok but nothing special...

Hanis

she has pouty lips and whole mysterious sexy thing going...

Jay

me likey her curves and the dress too...but i maybe biased coz i like Jay =P

Nadia

her gaze and her eyes look a bit lifeless...i perfer her intense look better.

Ringo

her face looks a bit puffy and this pic is not so nice >.<

what do you think? who's going to be eliminated next?

Malaysian Dreamgirl - The Top 6

2008-04-11T16:42:00.009+08:00

just finish watching episode 11, the latest episode of Malaysian Dreamgirl. this episode is rather interesting as the production crew, host, and judges decided to take control of the whole situation that is starting to get out of hand in the Dreamhome and among the girls as well.

Heart to Heart Session

the girls had a heart-to-heart session with Elaine Daly and each and every one of them was given a chance to voice out their feelings, disappointment, frustration or the opinions that they have of the other 6 girls. Nadia got pretty emotional during the session and most of them said that she is way too emotional, dramatic and that she is always talking about herself. As for Ringo, she said she is depressed and this resulted in her keeping to herself in the Dreamhome, instead of mixing with the other girls. As for Jay, she voiced her feelings about some of the girls not helping out around the house and she specifically directed that comment to Cindy. Then it was Cindy's turn. after Cinday said her piece, the rest started to voice their opinions and feelings and Fiqa's and Nadia's comment just made me snigger:

Cindy's turn

Fiqa : You're loud, you're selfish.... (Good 1, straight to the point)
Nadia : Your words, your actions, the way you chew your food like..........it's really loud (this made me laugh)

Strangely, Fiqa's and Adeline's part was not shown and that part just ended so abruptly and I think Cindy was still talking. anyway, after that session, the production crew decided to shift all of the girls into one single room. maybe to avoid the controversy that happened previously, what with the girls from the other room overhearing conversation from the second room. i hope the girl decided to call truce, it will make their life there a lot easier.

the episode also covered a fitting session that they had for a runway show for mifa. i didn't what that stand for, so i ask my best net friend, Mr. Google. MIFA probably stands for Malaysia International Fashion Award or Malaysia International Fashion Alliance. Not too sure though. The designer (i'm assuming his name is Karl Ng because they keep showing that name but never really introduced him) was kinda strange tho. he was addressing the girls but he decided to face the camera and with the girls behind him -___-"

he has an inferior complex. he's not brave enough to face the girls :P (please don't sue me)

After the clothes fitting and a practice walk, he gave some comments about their performance and he chose one girl as his muse. Ringo got chosen but she doesn't seem really happy about it. she made it sound like it is such a negative thing and the reason she was chosen because the designer wanted the taller girls on the runway. i thought being an artist's muse is the highest honour they can give you. it means you become their source of inspiration and is it? please let me know if i get the meaning wrong @_@

Oh, and Nadia got a chance to go for a photoshoot to build her portfolio because she won the last fashion challenge. Hohum....nothing special for this part.

The final 2 parts as usual is reserved for the elimination round. Sazzy decided it's time to get serious and she lectured them and told the girls to step up and kept emphasizing the fact that this is a competition and not a walk in the park. Sazzy gave them a piece of her mind and she was giving some serious comments about of the girls' performance for the wella photoshoot.

and the girls at the bottom 3 are

Adeline, Nadia, Fiqa

Suprised to see Adeline and particularly Nadia. Nadia has been quite a hit in this show.

but finally the girl eliminated in this round is:

Fiqa saying goodbye

sad to see her go. she's an enjoyable person to watch. she has lots of things to say and she's not too pretentious. at least that is what i think.

the top 6

i guess the girls really have to step up their performance. only 6 girls are left and the stake is getting higher. the next episode will be their runway show for mifa.

RM 1 !!!!!!

2008-04-10T23:48:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG.....

Look at this.

I made my first RM 1 in nuffnang!
I know RM1 may not be much and you can't really buy much with RM1 nowadays but this is the first RM1 I earned from blogging and I'm really really really proud of myself. Thank you Nuffnang for this pricelss RM1 (though I can't cash out yet) and also to those that have clicked on the ads on my blog.

Thank you so much *hugs and kisses*

My next aim...RM2 here I come and I'm gonna get that RM50 someday (^_^)v

Update on the Environment Challenge

2008-04-07T19:59:00.003+08:00

just a quick update. previously i wrote about an environment pledge that was running concurrently with the Greatest Race on Earth 2007/2008. recently i received an email update from the site about the results of the challenge and just to let you know, a total 3.4 million pledges were received.

and as i mentioned before, the three countries with the highest number of pledges will share USD 1 million to be channeled to their WWF organisation. the nations with the highest pledges are:

First place (USD 500,000) - Brunei
Second Place (USD 350,000) - Taiwan
Third Place (USD 150,000) - Hong Kong

The countries that generated the most pledges per capita across each region were:
South East Asia - Brunei
North East Asia - Taiwan
Middle East and South Asia - Lebanon
Africa - Botswana
UK/Europe - Jersey
Americas - Peru

Thank you for anyone that has made a pledge and please continue to take care of Mother Nature...

Malaysian Dreamgirl - The temperature is rising in the Dreamhome...

2008-04-06T16:12:00.009+08:00

just finish watching the new episode of Malaysian Dreamgirl and i gotta say that things are really heating up. the first two parts of the episode were on how the girls felt about eyna being eliminated and all the girls said that she shouldn't have been voted out because eyna is one of the best among the girls. some of the girls appeared teary but eyna was quite composed when they interviewed her. she said she had been expected to be eliminated, that's why she's just taking everything in stride. she said that she'll try taking up part-time modelling and i guess this is not gonna be the last we see of her. kudos and good luck eyna!!

the third part of the episode showed the photoshoot process. the photoshoot for this time is showcasing hair for wella professional. so all the shots are close-up of their face and lots of facial expression and attitude is needed for this photoshoot. initially elaine daly wanted them to proceed with the photoshoot in their own style without much intervention and instruction from her or the photographer but from their performance, she interjected and started directing the photoshoot. they still have lots to learn i guess.

after the photoshoot, they paid a visit to celebrity fitness, one of the show's sponsor. nothing much here, some exercising and yoga lessons. the last two parts were the interesting bits. they showed the girls calling home and talking to their family and friends. cindy's father was commenting on how unfair the show is potraying her daughter etc and said that they should have focus more on her talent and performance in the show instead. but somehow, i don't really understand what's the big hoohaa about the shoes and tomatoes issue that lead to this. afterall, those are petty issues, so why make a big fuss out of it @_@

enough of that, here's some pics from the wella photoshoot.

Adeline

this pic is not nice, the eyes look lifeless and despite the angular feature of her cheek, it still made her look puffy and chubby.

Cindy

another not so nice pic from cindy. not much attitde and expression from the face. and she look so lost and confused.

Fiqa

i like this picture, the hair and makeup look nice. she does seem a bit unsure but i like it =P

Hanis

bad picture. dunno what to say about this >_<

Jay

somehow this pic makes jay look a bit like alison. i like this pic, the white falsies are so contrasting compared to the rest of the pic. it draws your attention to her eyes. it would have been better if she had that intense stare at something but i guess the faraway look does suit the hairstyle.

Nadia

maybe it's the hair but i don't like this pic. the hair, the expression, the angle, the makeup...i'm not sure but it just seem so weird to me -__-

Ringo

the pic reminds me of Princess Leia from Star Wars. what do you think? LOL....anyway, i think ringo needs to learn more about expressing herself in prints and photoshoots. looks okay but the pic doesn't wow me.

aside from the girls, i must say that the production crew of the show is really improving and the quality is better. and i really like they new approach to segment and divide the episode. it's easier to follow and nicer to watch. good job and keep up the good work ^_^

ok ppl, it's time to vote for your favourite girl again. do vote and you have until monday midnight before the voting is close. there's only few more weeks left, makes you wonder who really have what it takes to become the first Malaysian Dreamgirl. We'll just have to stay tuned to find out.

IMMA FEMES

2008-04-05T23:04:00.010+08:00

i was minding my own business and happily surfing the Net when i decided to go check out innit and Nuffnang. and guess what, i'm femes!!! suddenly there's a spike in the number of visits to my blog and most of them came from Malaysian Dreamgirl cause I WON the Week 4 blog contest with this entry.

YOOHOOOOOOOOO.........

and i'm femes because i never had such high traffic before. see for yourself :P

HAHAHA.....yup my blog visit stats are pathetic and i guess those really femes bloggers can get three to fours more than that in an hour, even the regular bloggers can get those numbers easily but i'm really happy as this is the highest traffic to my blog EVER...normally the number of visits are less than five per day...sometimes even none if i don't login.

so don't mind me if i get carried away (^_^)v

a special thanks to nuffnang and MDG and those that have visited...do come again =D

welcome to leave me some comment and flame me if you want =P

and while you're at it, please click the nuffnang ad before you leave ya =D

/end of delirious bimbo-ish post and start planning how to use my RM100 =P

Malaysian Dreamgirl - The ugly truth behind reality shows...

2008-04-04T20:42:00.007+08:00

phew....finally my 2 midterms. hope i didn't too badly.

anyway, after getting back home, i went to the Malaysian Dreamgirl website to get my episode dose. episode 9 startly quite nicely and it seems to be longer compared to the previous episodes. and i like the way where they separate different event/outing into a single episode part. it's easier to follow that way. previously, each part ended so abruptly and the scene continues with the next part. the new editing sure makes more sense and presentation is way better.

the reason for my title is because Eyna got eliminated in this episode. despite all the good things everyone seem to say about her, she was still eliminated. but after all, MDG is essentially a reality show that is judged based on the member of votes each finalist get every week. therefore, it can be anyone's playing field as long they have the connection and money to ensure that they get plenty of votes each week.

each and every week, eyna's pictures have came out nicely and even the judges commented on how nice and perfect they seem. they described her pictures as effortless and will always turn out really nice....but ironically, eyna had been in the bottom three for all three elimination rounds and in the first round, she got lucky because jean pulled out. if not, she would have been eliminated much earlier.

but i guess, owing to the exposure and experience from this show, she will make it big in the modelling field. even sazzy, the host said that she expect to see eyna's work in magazine and not to give up on modelling. with her assets and the right connection, surely this would very likely happen in the future.

good luck eyna and here's some of her pcitures from MDG

Women's Secret photoshoot

White summer

eyna saying goodbye

After eyna's untimely elimination, the last remaining 7 finalist.

so ppl, to prevent from seeing potential being wasted, remember to vote for your favourite girl, kay...

busy busy busy

2008-04-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

taking a breather from my work.......this past few weeks and another 1 month to go, will be very busy time. this is the last lap. gonna finish my degree program in another 1 month. 1 month and 12 days to be exact. gonna be having 2 midterms tomorrow and the deadline for thesis submission is coming soon in another 12 days. so no time to waste, have to finish everything and make sure that everything is in order. don't want to fail at the last minute. apart from that, the assignments and lab sessions are piling around this time as well >.<

can't wait for the last paper, then i can relax secukup-cukupnya :P and and....what's more, will be going to Thailand in June with my coursemate. it will be our class trip. can't wait...i never been there before and going together with them, will make it a sweeter experience.

gotta go back to my work now....

Malaysian Dreamgirl - The plot thickens...

2008-03-28T16:05:00.007+08:00

i just finished watching the latest episode of Malaysian Dreamgirl and i was right. the drama around the house is starting and from the episode, the plot is certainly thickening. this episode they revealed who they were b*itching about in the last episode. the three girls that they wanted out are Cindy, Adeline and Valerie. particularly Cindy but most of them are okay with the latter two but because the three of them always hang out together, so i guess too bad for them.

the conversation between Cindy and her father was so funny. it certainly proves that there's some truth in their claim where they say Cindy is so fake. i was laughing my head off, she was going on and on and on...about how everyone is boycotting her and shunning her that she kinda lost her temper by the end of the conversation. oh and the father was giving her some advice about not being so frank with her opinions of others so that life can be easier and not to cry so much. LOL.....Cindy, a small advice: it's not really good for your reputation if conversation like that is aired. so be careful with your words, darling...the production crew knows how to translate Mandarin.

Hanis and Fiqa were b*tching about Cindy for whole 7 to 8 minutes of the show and clearly there's a lot of things happening in the background. about Cindy not making an effort to clean the house and never doing housework. and i think Cindy is a bit overboard when Hanis mentioned about the egg incident. but strangely, Fiqa and Hanis seem a bit teary-eyed during the interview. wonder why though....Adeline comments about the rest of the girls being jealous of Cindy was so...so....naive *roll eyes*...maybe they are, but it's highly unlikely. they seem more annoyed than jealous to me.

towards the end of the show, the second elimination round was carried out and the girl with the least votes will be sent home.

bottom three

the unpopular girl aka Cindy gets to stay on...

in the end, Valerie was sent home. she was really sad to leave and one of the production crew had to help her down the stairwell.

now the quirky girl is not in the competition anymore :(

8 more to go...who will be eliminated next? the next show will be shown on Saturday, so stay tune, kay?

Malaysian Dreamgirls - The drama starts....

2008-03-27T21:34:00.007+08:00

i've been watching Malaysian Dreamgirl since it started showing in march. for those that have no freaking idea what i'm talking about, Malaysian Dreamgirl is Malaysia's first online reality model search. despite being such a new programme, the show is actually quite good with a suprisingly large group of sponsors. and all the freebies that the finalist got from the show, makes me want to join to show as well :P and they went for flying fox, that's like so cool. the model that wins even get to drive back a brand new nissan latio... but i hope the editing crew lower the volume when they get freebies though, it's quite unnerving, 12 girls screaming at the same time *shudder*

as i was saying, the show is starting to heat up now. the finalist is required to stay together in a house for the duration of the competition and from the episodes shown last week, there's some sign that the drama will start soon. apparently, some of the finalists don't mix too well with the rest. but not too sure who's who yet as they never really state the finalist's name. oh well, i'll just have to stay tuned to find out. can't wait for the catfights, hair pulling and scream fight to start happening.....lol..

anyway, here's some eye candy from the latest photoshoot at Precinct 2, Putrajaya.

Adeline

i really like her during the audition show but somehow as the show progresses, she doesn't shine as much.

Cindy

her pics usually don't turned out too well and her crying scene was a bit annoying -__-

Eyna

she has very unique facial features but somehow i find the face a bit "lacking" and something just don't look right, hmmm...maybe it's just me. but i like the pic alot.

Fiqa

not much to say about her but this pose of her look so not model-like >.<

Hanis

she look so much like a biker chick in this pic.

Jay

she's so masculine in this pic. i like...and her legs are like sooooo long.

Nadia

my first impression of her was "wow, she's scary". throughout the show, she looked very scary and "garang". i think it's because of her eye brows? anyway, i really like this pic and at first, i couldn't even recognise it was her. the pic look so calm and comfortable, just lazing away in the armchair.

Ringo

strangely, her outfit for this photoshoot look so feminine compared to the rest. and the pose look feminine too...hmmm...

Valerie

i miss her big hair, but her new hairstyle looks great too. she's the quirky girl and oh so cute. but this pic doesn't do her justice. her previous pic for women's secret was like WOW, she looked great and she got nice assets.

that's all, only 9 left. too bad Alison got eliminated. and why oh why Jean pulled out. gonna miss them both on the show.

can't wait for the next show....

Road Not Taken

2008-03-24T01:18:00.008+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~Robert Frost~

i still remember this poem from back in secondary school when this poem was included in the English Literature Studies. haven't taken much notice about the syllabus for SPM now, wonder if this poem is still in the book

looking back at this poem, i guess at some point in life, everyone will be able to relate to the message behind it. when you come to a junction, you'll want to take the road that you are sure will lead you to where you want to go, the road with the best sceneries, the smoothest road without potholes and ditches but will you really know the condition of the road before you even take it? of course if you gone down the road dozens time before, you'll know where the holes are and how to avoid them and there are always signboards and maps you can refer to.....but what about the roads in our lives

roads in ours lives, the decisions we make each and everyday of our lives. sure it may not mean much whether you order mocha or latte at your favourite coffee house today but what about bigger decisions? your life direction, the values you want to hold on to, your career path and also those that involve love ones? what about those road? there are no signboards and maps that can help you. oh sure, nowadays there are plenty of self-help books out there, but can they really predict exactly what will happen, are those books going to be your manual in life? do you want your life to be arranged and scripted out like the truman show

its the surprises and the twists in life that makes us feel alive. it is the ability to choose our own path in life, the freedom to make mistakes and to find and make bittersweet memories. it is all these experiences and memories in life that make us who we are right now. sure, there were tears, heartbreaks and regrets but there were are laughter, love and comfort. ups and downs in life is what makes the world go round, it is those bad experiences that makes us appreciate and be happy for all the good things in life. what a dull life this would be if you get what you wish for, things just goes as planned, everything just falls into place. yea, there will be no sadness and tears but will there be happiness and laughter

i know all these concepts and i really understand but whenever i'm at a junction, i struggle and hesitate and sometimes i make the wrong decisions. i took many wrong turns and hoping someday i'll take the right road. sometimes i've wondered about the road not taken, what might have been and the what if's but no point dwelling on those right? everything happens for a reason and if it's mine to begin with, it will always be mine right

there's so much i want in life, so much i want to experience, so many places i want to go and so many things i want to do. i want to try but i'm scared. i'm terrified but maybe if i'm just brave enough to take small baby steps, maybe i'll be brave enough to take bigger steps later down the road and reach my final destination happy, contented and full of memories. bruised, tattered and tired maybe, but happy nonetheless...

if there is anyone reading this and you're at a junction too, let's do this together, shall we ^_^

p.s. regardless of what i said earlier, i sure hope someday a genius will invent a gprs device that can tell us our roads in life. LOL

29th March - Earth Hour

2008-03-13T18:12:00.008+08:00

everyone please mark this date on your calendars, the 29th of march. that very day from 8pm to 9pm is the earth hour. i can hear a lot of people asking bout what the heck is earth hour. earth hour is the hour to show a little support to our planet earth by opting to switch off your lights for that hour.

just turn off your lights for one hour to show support and to reduce global warming and climate change. this event was started last year by Sydney but this year, the event have gone global and major participation from 25 cities across the world is being planned and those cities include Chicage, San Francisco, Sydney, Manila, Bangkok, Toronto and many more. As of now, 7,097 businesses and 112,269 people have registered to participate in Earth Hour.

For more details, go to EARTH HOUR to read about this special event.
And while you're there, make sure to register your name kay

Please inform your friends, family and co-workers about this. The more people around the world who switch off their lights for just one hour, the bigger and more powerful message we can deliver. Every single light makes a statement and makes a difference. (extracted from the WWF email i received)

Happy Moments

2008-03-11T21:48:00.013+08:00

i know i know, past few posts were very sad and depressing. so i thought i'll share some of the moments that can make me very happy. moments like this can literally bring a smile to my furry little face :)

time spent reading a good book

watching my favourite shows
(yea I have real bad eyesight)

having a nice hot cup of coffee on a chilly rainy day

chilling out after a long day at work

hanging out with my friends

and of course, getting lots and lots of angpows on CNY

and if this win me RM5k, i'll be VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY happy....

SO VOTE FOR ME...

http://happy.com.my/happymoments/happymoments_rank.aspx?page=&ID=1faac04b-06dd-4369-b4c5-1c051b5eb91b

save the turtles

2008-03-10T18:34:00.004+08:00

World Wide Fund for Nature (WWF) is running a donation drive to save the endangered turtles. please lend a hand and donate to help the declining numbers of turtles in the world. you can donate via SMS which only cost RM3 each or you can also donate through their website.

for more details, please go to http://wwf.org.my/how_you_can_help/donate_main/save_our_turtles/index.cfm

The Greatest Race on Earth : Race for a Living Planet is being held and in conjunction with this race, Standard Chartered has decided to donate USD 1 million to to support environment conservation projects that received the most pledges. So make you environmental pledge today and vote for Malaysia.

for more details, please go to
http://www.thegreatestraceonearth.com/your_enviro_pledge/eng/

decisions, decisions, decisions.....

2008-03-09T13:26:00.003+08:00

why do i always have to face with decisions? do i follow what my heart says or should i look at the pros and cons of the situation? but what if i make the wrong decisions? i have faced too many of those so-called wrong decisions.

should i make the decision now or should i just let it simmer for awhile? would i be too late to make a decision then? should i take this opportunity even if it's not exactly what i'm aiming for? but exactly am i aiming for? i'll be graduating soon but i still have no freaking idea what i want to do in life? how i did i get in this situation in the first place?

sigh....but regardless, my decisions - good or bad - have brought me to where i am now and despite the ups and downs, it have been a great adventure nonetheless.

hmmm....i'm too fickleminded and i think i tend to be contradicting sometimes. i lament about making wrong decisions but then tries my best to see the good thing out of it. it just boils down to being a coward and a proscratinator i guess. afraid to put my foot down and will try my very best to wait until the very last minute to make my move.

what still thinking about what should i do? if i back out now, will i appear irresponsible and unprofessional? or should i just go, afterall it's just the second base...nothing is set in stone yet. but what's the point of going if i'm even considering that possibility? apart from that, there's the possible bond i need to take into consideration. how long do i need to wait and will i be selected?

oh my....what should i do?

A lesson in love

2008-03-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

met up with a friend today. he needed a break from his busy working schedule so he dropped by for a visit. a quiet afternoon spent with a friend turned out to be an eye-opener. he's much older and has been making a living for a considerable time and there's no surprises that he's more experienced and so much wiser.

we talked a lot and somehow we got to the topic of my lovelife. my pathetic lovelife. somehow it was so easy to talk to him about it, so much easier than with my closest friends. maybe because i know that he won't judge me and because he's not in my normal circle of friends.

he made me realized that this life is actually quite simple. it's a give-and-take life, if you can give what they want, you'll be able to take what you want. but what about all the fairy tales we read when we were children? what about happily-ever-after? what about true love?

but i guess it's true somehow. i'm hopeful but i'm not all that naive either. i know that it's a cutthroat world out there, a place where you need to fend for yourself, having to keep your weaknesses to yourself and showing only the best you can offer. but must this also include love?

i'm not at all experienced when it comes to love. i messed up real bad in this department. i broke so many people's hearts just because of that one decision. if i have taken more time to think it over, if i have had the strength to say no and be logical about it all and not be rash, things wouldn't turned out to be the way it is now. i feel so much guilt that i can't be a real friend.

And the feelings for him is still deep within me. i still think about him all the time despite it being close to 4 years now. i still think of him before i drift to sleep at night and all the memories still lingers on the very moment i wake up in the morning. how i hope for a day when he'll wake up in the morning and realise that he's madly in love with me and will once again pull me into his warm embrace. how i wish....

i sometimes do wonder though about this feeling i have for him. is it really love or is it just the need to hold on to something that i can't have. what is this feeling i have for him? and i doubt that he still feels the same way. he gave me all the answers that i seek and i believe him. but i can't seem to move on, still trying very hard to hold on to those sweet memories.

i'm no longer featured in his life, we no longer share any memories together. i don't know how he is and all the things happenning in his life. he found a new life now, striving to achieve his dream in life and i guess i'm no longer in his heart now. as long as he is happy, i guess that's enough....

to him, take care....

as for me, i'll survive....

A new beginning.

2008-02-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

hoping for a new beginning. a beginning that brings more laughter into my life. a beginning that teaches me how to forgive and forget and be thankful and grateful for all the sweet and happy memories from yesteryears. a beginning that allows me to move on. a beginning that brings me new love, memories, opportunities and dreams.

but sometimes i do wonder if that is really what i want after all. do i really want to forget? am i ready to venture into the unknown? to begin everything from point A again? to start with a clean slate and hopefully that i will get things right this time? but what if i mess up again? what if i make mistakes over and over and over again? what if....

all these doubts and hesitation has held me back for a long long time. i do care about what people think of me. i do mind. i mind when my friends forget about my birthday. i do mind when they leave me out when they plan for outings and activities. i mind when i just seem like an outsider when i'm with them. i mind when i don't have an idea what they are talking about. yes i mind, i really mind.

but what can i do? i'm too proud to ask for more attention. and i'm too proud to show them that i really need people by my side. i'm just too proud. i know i'm a hypocrite. who do i think i am? why would they care about how i feel? after 4 years together, i still feel like an outsider sometimes. whenever i see pictures of their night out, it hurts inside because i know that they never even bothered to invite me. and i don't know anything about it.

who will be there for me? i used to believe that i found that someone. but maybe the timing was wrong or we are just not fated to be together afterall. maybe...there's too many "maybe"s. i'm still trying very hard to hold on to that promise he made a very very long time ago. but deep down inside, i know it that the promise will never come to....too much mistakes and obstacles in front of us. but somehow my heart just don't want to accept that. i'm hoping that with a little faith and hope, miracles do happen. but will it really happen?

how do i start a new beginning will all these questions i have? but maybe if i'm brave enough to take small steps, no matter how small it is, it is a step. a step that will hopefully bring me towards a fulfilling and eventful journey......

Lesson 101

2008-02-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

A brand new blog to celebrate a brand new life ahead. Life is never going to be easy but I'm pretty sure it's going to be a good teacher with a lot of lessons to share and with plenty of surprises in hand.

The past 23 years have been an eye-opener for me. With lots of laughter and tears, those life events has brought me to where I am now. Looking back, life has been kind with me giving me family and friends that I believed that truly cared for me. Allowing me the opportunity to pave my own path in life amidst the challenges and opportunities encountered.

But it wasn't always a bed of roses either. Despite the image that I project to the world, I really am just an insecure, timid and shy girl trying very hard to fit in into this crazy little world. I'm envious of those that can so freely show all their emotions to the world. How I wish I had the courage to do that.

Perhaps I'm just too scared of being judged and this prevents me from being able to express myself freely. Has this fear made me into this unpproachable person? Will anyone be able to see through the mask that I wear everyday and seek the person within? Will anyone be able to fill the loneliness that I feel behind closed doors?

With faith and hope in my heart, i wish that sooner or later i'll be able to find my place in this big world....