decisions, decisions, decisions.....

why do i always have to face with decisions? do i follow what my heart says or should i look at the pros and cons of the situation? but what if i make the wrong decisions? i have faced too many of those so-called wrong decisions.

should i make the decision now or should i just let it simmer for awhile? would i be too late to make a decision then? should i take this opportunity even if it's not exactly what i'm aiming for? but exactly am i aiming for? i'll be graduating soon but i still have no freaking idea what i want to do in life? how i did i get in this situation in the first place?

sigh....but regardless, my decisions - good or bad - have brought me to where i am now and despite the ups and downs, it have been a great adventure nonetheless.

hmmm....i'm too fickleminded and i think i tend to be contradicting sometimes. i lament about making wrong decisions but then tries my best to see the good thing out of it. it just boils down to being a coward and a proscratinator i guess. afraid to put my foot down and will try my very best to wait until the very last minute to make my move.

what still thinking about what should i do? if i back out now, will i appear irresponsible and unprofessional? or should i just go, afterall it's just the second base...nothing is set in stone yet. but what's the point of going if i'm even considering that possibility? apart from that, there's the possible bond i need to take into consideration. how long do i need to wait and will i be selected?

oh my....what should i do?